#funny how yesterday i was surrounded by people since about 7 a.m. but felt such a deep #loneliness i actually had to go to #god about it. he reminded me quickly that i had been invited to a #party, a #paint party. and even though i wanted to soak in my pity a while longer, i could not. it is so easy to complain or grumble as wise counsel recently told me, i don't want to do that. i romanticized life in #hawaii and #bible college. i was wrong in a lot of ways of what this experience would be like. but god has surprised me on a daily basis with his #love and amazingness. to end my #sunday in a beautiful home in ewa beach painting, laughing til it hurts and just being my weird self without apologies was exactly what i needed and god knew that. i needed to be surrounded by other #christian women lifting me up, i needed to #relax and paint, i needed to dress up head to toe like confused 80's cyndi lauper for no reason with bright mismatched colors, a headband and blue eyeshadow- something about going to a paint party during a #rainstorm brought that out of me. i had fun. i relaxed. i was invited. i made new friends. god did not forget about me. he puts us in the right places at the right times with the right people. i would much rather let god do what he does than do what i could just to not be alone. with god, we are never alone. i prayed for good, godly friends and that is a process. i love everyone but god will quickly show me #truecolors and i do have discernment. i pray for that. i am in a new season and chapter of my life. things take time. i don't know how to paint. but god is just telling me let my #light #shine, just no matter what, be the light - he will do the rest. well thank you #jesus. your strength, not mine. i love you #lord. #luckywelivehawaii#honolulu#oahu#ewabeach#sundayfunday#vacation#ministry#bethelight#808#faith#friends#ohana#onelove matthew 5:16 in the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your father in heaven.